i hate everything, i feel like nothing can give me any satisfaction. I miss sculpting. something that made sense. I wonder how long its been since i had any free time. none. my mother laid this huge guilt trip on me today first thing when i woke up, i don't see her enough, or so she'd have me believe. I don't even have enough time to do things I want to do. I hate school, I feel like everything I am studying is pointless, like everything I am learning will be obsolete in three years. I wish I were studing how to develope my ideas, or at least express myself. it seems the longer I study code the less i am able to communicate with anyone.

 

I want to give up, but i can't